Patience

pa·tience

   [pey-shuhns]  Show IPA

noun

1.

the quality of being patient,  as the bearing of provocation,annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss oftemper, irritation, or the like.

2.

an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness orannoyance when confronted with delay: to have patience with aslow learner.

3.

quiet, steady perseverance; even-tempered care; diligence:to work with patience.

 As I sat down at The Tampered Press to blog this morning I couldn't get my Mac to connect to their wi fi. I tried multiple times, restarted my computer etc etc. It wouldn't connect, so rather than packing up my stuff and going, I sat with my coffee and I waited. Patiently waiting. 

This may sound simple, yeah, wait it out. Just give it a few minutes to connect. But in the past I have been the least patient person in the world. When I finished high school I didn't wait a minute before I flew off to Toronto, I would rush relationships, ideas and even though I grew up in the east coast I would get so bored fishing! No breaks, no vacations, no silence just go go go.

 Now a few years ago in theatre school I wrote in a journal I was going to 'practice more patience'. I continued to write this in journals and papers and whatever else, that I was going to 'practice more patience'. I recognized in myself that  I often want to rush and skip over important moments and steps. Whats that quote, its not about the final destination its about the journey? Well whatever it is, its true.

Even just now as I waited for the internet to connect (so I could sip my coffee, blog and read the news) I didn't mind. I didn't mind waiting. WHOA a revelation for me! And now writing this blog is that much more rewarding. Also, the other day I was teaching  group of adults at the circus school and afterwards one woman commented on how patient I was with their group. She didn't know, but that was definitely one of the best compliments someone could give me as a teacher and as a person.

  Now for fear of jumping to conclusions too quickly (and not taking my time to fully realize my revelation)  I will not say I have succeeded in practicing patience. But I do think patience has found a nice little place in my life and its making me a happier person :)